As my eyes opened yesterday morning before the alarm sounded, thoughts immediately rushed into my head. I thought of my friend having serious back surgery this day. I was to be at a new job in a few hours…the first time working outside my home in twenty-seven years. I had just gotten news that my grandbaby needed to do an acrobatic flip inside the womb of my daughter pretty quickly as his quarters were getting more cramped by the day. This day I was to hear the extent of my son’s knee injury.
I was anxious. I began talking to my Father (God) about these things. As I asked God to please guide the doctor’s hands during the surgery of my friend and give her and her family peace, I remembered all the many miracles Jesus performed while on this earth and how He continues to heal the sick. He is the Great Physician.
As I prayed about the new job, I thought about how God had prepared me in several ways throughout my life for this preschool teaching job. I began teaching Sunday School to children only a few years younger than myself at age 13. I homeschooled my four children (and still are) for the past twenty-four years. I’ve taught Junior church and Sunday School for years. I gained some confidence as I thought about how God has faithfully directed my steps over the years.
Concerning my grandbaby, God has been busy forming him in the womb for several months now. He knows all about his character, personality, physical traits, and has grand plans for his life. God loves him much more than even his parents and I do. He is holding this little one in His very capable hands even as I write this.
Nathan has been uncomfortable for close to two weeks with his bum knee. He has learned to better sympathize with those you can’t get around easily. He longs to run again. He has a greater appreciation for good health. We’ve had to wait for test results and possible surgery for several days. I asked God to work out the details about getting him on the road to healing quickly. As I talked to God about this situation, my worries began to fade as I thought about all the other times He had come through for me at the last minute.
When I called to get an appointment yesterday (Tuesday), the nurse said she could see us next Monday. I began to plead, My son has been on crutches for twelve days and is uncomfortable. We really need to get something done. Is there any way you can see him before then? She told me the doctor was booked, but she would see what she could do and for me to hold. I began to earnestly ask God to intervene and get me an appointment in the afternoon so I wouldn’t have to ask off work.
She came back on the line and said, Can you be here tomorrow at two?
YES!!! Praise the Lord! Thank you SO much! was my response.
It is easy for me to take my burdens to my God whom I know longs to hear from me. As I begin to pray, I envision myself bowing before Jesus’ feet. I see the love in His eyes. I’m empowered as I think about HIS power to change anything and everything. I believe He is for me and has good plans for me. The challenge is to leave my cares with Him and not pick them back up when I walk away.
Sadly, it’s only been in the last months that I think I’m learning what it means to truly rest and hide in Jesus. I know He doesn’t want me upset and worried. I Peter 5:7 says, Casting all your care upon Him; for He cares for you. I have been asking Him to control my emotions and help me have the mind of Christ. I want to think as He thinks. I want to feel as He feels about things.
Because I can’t right all the wrongs in the world, I’ve asked God to give me compassion for the people and ministries He wants me to be involved in and to be somewhat indifferent to the ones I don’t have the resources for. Also, I know I can’t have an intimate relationship with every person I’ve ever known so I’ve asked God to burden my heart for the ones who need me most that day. I want to be where He wants me and use my time in a way that pleases Him.
This is what hiding and resting in Jesus has come to mean to me. I would love to hear your thoughts on what it means to you. I know I have a long way to go, but my life has become so much more peaceful lately as I’m learning to lean on Him.
I would like to leave you with the lyrics of Perfect Peace by Joe Zichterman.
When life’s burdens get so heavy and it seems I’m all alone,
I cast my care on Jesus and come boldly to his throne.
I find His grace sufficient when His promises I heed.
For His very life He sacrificed, and He lives to intercede.
He is the Lord of lords, and when He speaks, winds and waves obey.
When Jesus whispers, “Peace, be still,” then darkness turns to day.
And as I’m trusting in my Savior’s Word doubts and fears all cease.
And beneath the shelter of His wings I’m at rest in perfect peace.
I will seek for souls in darkness, Calv’ry’s love with them to share,
Empowered by His Spirit I will follow anywhere.
For I know whate’er befall me my Lord is in control.
And as my mind is stayed on Him, perfect peace He gives me soul.
My you have perfect peace today,